lunabee34

I've got some sort of ridiculous ear infection. It started on Monday as just feeling a little congested on the left side of my head and progressed to every sound becoming a bizarre echo, and last night the tinnitus kept me awake so that by the time I had to go to work this morning, I was just done with it all. I cancelled class, went to the doctor (who saw nothing wrong with my ear--"it must be *behind* the ear drum") who gave me amoxicillin and a RX for Diflucan just in case. Cross your fingers, everyone. If this doesn't work, then I need an ENT referral.

I'm not in any pain--just pressure, muffled hearing, and the tinnitus, but it is astonishing to me how terrible this makes me feel. I've already been struggling with my vision because of the dry eyes, and now I can't hear either? And I know this is a temporary thing; something is wrong; it will get fixed. But part of me is all OMG I just have tinnitus now, and my life will suck forever. *sigh*

But then.

But then.

I got a call from my parents, and

MY DAD'S CANCER IS OFFICIALLY IN REMISSION!! HIS M-SPIKE IS ZERO! HE GETS TO RING THE BELL!

I'm so happy for him. Best case scenario, he can stop taking a bunch of the meds he's been taking, get off chemo (or maybe go once or twice a year instead of four times), and the remission could last for up to ten years. I am so hopeful.

Also, in the happy-making arena:

Stay Hungry by gloss
Star Wars
Finn/Poe
Warm and fuzzy and perfect. I wrap it around me like a blanket and tell my ear to fuck off.


forestofglory is hosting a dire pandas in Guardian challenge, and I think I might write something for it.

I feel so guilty re: Guardian. My love burned so hot and bright, and then the ending of the damn show just killed all my enthusiasm. I feel like it's been a bait-and-switch for the new circle members who showed up for the Guardian posts that turned into complete radio silence on the subject. Maybe what I need is extremely silly dire panda fic to reignite the flame. Or something. LOL